Spare me please
I don’t think I deserve it

Its high time I should stop letting you use me
Its high time I should stop liking you for what you are
Its high time I should start hating you for what you are not
Its high time I should come out of this quagmire
I shouldn’t have understood you too well
I shouldn’t have seen you beyond your mask

Let my strength crumble
Let me lose my composure
Let me just shout at you
Let me just stop empathizing with you
Let me just break down and cry
Let me just don’t care of others
Let me just break and cry

Now I understand the glory of weak
Now I understand the need of irrationality
Now I understand the bliss of insensibility
Now I understand how to exist
Wish I could understand how to live
I am sure I will sooner or later...

There she is
Waiting for me
Smiling with her eyes
Carefully watching me
Playfully beckoning me
There she is
Lady in black singing the songs of liberation

No matter how many people I meet
No matter how many people wish me to be with them
No matter how many people I wish to be with
No matter how many good things promise to stay with me
No matter how hard I try
No matter how genuine ones wishes are
I know the truth
She is my true companion, the only friend for life, my destiny

There she is waiting for me
Just like a mom waiting for the arrival of her kid from school
And here I am waiting for you
Just like a kid waiting to run away from the school into your safe arms

Just like a kid to the school I entered this world bawling and crying
Had my own learnings few by choice many by hobson’s choice
Met people here few bitter and many sweeter
But let me tell you this I miss you v badly
And I dont think I should be blamed for this
Where else a child could go to rather than to its mother's safe arms
So Soon I will come back home
With my tales in this school of world
Very soon…

I will tell you the days in which I never thought of you
I will tell you the days in which I despised you
I will tell you the days in which you were the only one I wanted
I will tell you the days in which I thought you were the only solution
Most importantly I will tell you the truth I so skillfully carry
May be it might ease the pain it might be the only cure!

I know no matter how good some might be in hurting me
I know you are always there waiting for me
I know you are always there waiting patiently for me
And let me tell you thats my only strength
Though many a times I just want to come running to you leaving behind things I don’t want to learn
I am afraid whether you would like to see your child back from school before the right time
What if you don’t receive me? Where will I go if you yourself don’t accept me

So I wait here until the class gets over
Waiting for the bell to ring
Waiting for the painful lessons to get over
Waiting for my time
Waiting for you...

Someone is your friend when none can change your feelings for him

Someone is more than your friend when that none includes you too…

Life is beautiful as long as you remember that few things are only to be appreciated and not to be aspired for!

Life is peaceful as long as you remember that few people are only to be loved and not to be longed for!

Note: Please dont read it when you are in a depressed mood as it doesnt end in a positive note and much thought dint went in it while penning it down...

Wanna know what is this
Wanna know what is this

Something worser than death
Something sharper than pain
Something stronger than guilt

Wanna know what is this
Wanna know what is this

Loneliness replacing solitude
Laughter replacing joy
Madness replacing composure
Helplessness replacing confidence
Tiredness replacing liveliness
Indifference replacing enthusiasm
Fear replacing the adrenaline rush
Deadly silence replacing peace

Wanna know what is this
Wanna know what is this

Hazy days
Teary eyes
Fiery words
Dreary thoughts
Sleepless nights
Timeless days
A zombie life
Yeah nothing but a zombie life

Where did all the rationality go?
Where did all the clarity go?
Where did all the sensibilty go?
Where did all the dreams go?
Where did all the zeal go?
Where did all the hope go?

Fighting the unknown for an unknown
Searching the unknown for an unknown
Chasen by dark shadows
Chosen by cruelty
Hitted by hard truths
Pushed into nothing
Surrounded by volumes of emptiness
Tormented by the ruthless memories
A shapeless hand beckoning to a ceaseless torture
Running madly away from all
No guts to look back
No power to comprehend
No sense to accept
No shoulder to rely
Running madly away from all
Just running away from all...

Every complexity is just like a complex number
Constituted by both real and imaginary part
All we need to remember is
It is 'I' who makes the things complex
It is 'I' which needs to be work upon
Just remove the 'I'
There lies the real part!

Have you ever seen anyone playing dirtier tricks than this life?
Has it ever happened to you before?
Have you ever given a thought about it?
Just when you get a clarity and strength to move on after spending countless sleepless nights and painful introspections
It playfully smiles and starts the whole game again in its own way
But dear life hear it from me
I am not gonna let you fool me
Dear life I know the secret
I know how to put you in your place
Sensibilty is the only guard
Present is the only truth
Action is the only cure
Focus is all we need to escape from the mirages of this life
So dear take it from me
I am not gonna let you fool me
I am not gonna let you fool me